Happy New Year!
What’s so great about the new year? As a person who has always worked in the schools, I never understood the big celebration of the beginning of a new year. My job is the same, and when I return to school, my students will be the same, too. My friends are the same, my family is the same….I’m the same! So, I never really understood the excitement people feel on December 31st. Or are they just looking for an excuse for a good party?
I’ve also never been big on resolutions. I might haphazardly make one in order to have some small talk at the big New Years’ Eve bash, but I don’t think I’ve ever kept one before.
However, I am trying to change my ‘bah hum bug’ attitude about this new year in particular. I am in a new place after all (today officially marks being a Chicago resident for 4 months), so maybe making some positive changes are in order.
Resolution #1: I will quit smoking (again).
I am a smoker. I hate to admit it. I have had very successful stints as a non-smoker only to return to the dark side after weeks or months or (one time) a whole year! I love smoking, but I hate smoking. Smoking is something I cling to when things are not going quite as I had planned.
I can still remember my mom driving away from campus after dropping me off for my freshman year of college. And what did I do? I went and bought a pack of cigarettes. I needed a friend, and nicotine seemed to be my chosen substitute. Plus, in college everybody smoked (it seemed) so what’s the big deal?
I tried to quit smoking a handful of times (once during finals – mistake!). I told myself I would quit after college, but you know what happens after college? The real world. I couldn’t quit smoking during the first year of my first job – too stressful. My friends would tell me it’s gross/we want you to be healthy and – as a rational person- I know all these things to be true. But temptation was too much sometimes.
But this time is for real. I don’t need the comfort of my cigarettes. If I can move and start a new job in a new city, I should be able to handle giving up the cigarettes….right?
Resolution #2: Write more.
This is pretty self-explanatory. But in particular, I want to challenge myself to write a play. I have been saying that I was going to do it for a while now, but somehow it always gets pushed to the bottom of my list of priorities. And I’ve finally figured it out. It’s not because I’m just too busy – it’s because I’m afraid.
For some reason, putting words on a page and then saying, “Hey, that’s mine. I did that. Those are my ideas,” is one of the scariest things I can think of…..but not anymore! This is the year. This year I will write a play…..AND since I’m being particularly bold, I will let a few people read that play! How’s that for ambition?
That’s it! Just the two resolutions. I feel that’s a good place to start for someone who isn’t generally excited about a new year in general. So come on 2013! Let’s do this.